Waiting

It’s been a long time – and I’m worried that this post will sound a lot like a bitch fest. But it’s not, really it’s not. My days at work have become too busy to think about myself or the world around me, and my weekends are generally equally busy either attempting to get rid [...]

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Not The Words…

I am finding myself suddenly overwhelmed by a thought, a mere idea or fantasy that could have come about in a dream or a scene that I created for myself in the very depths of my mind during my waking hours. It is hard to say where inspiration such as this comes from, all I [...]

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Releasing the Demons and Relishing the Past

I am bursting at the seams, absolutely bubbling over with the emotions that I seldom know how to control. Words are spiraling out of control and physically manifesting themselves as tornadoes of inexplicable energy rushing throughout my body. How could I possibly explain it? Does anyone out there relate to this feeling? Please, I must [...]

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block

the past few months have been a constant struggle to come up with a topic or the words to write. even now, after months of brainstorming and taking mental notes about new experiences, i just can’t come up with the creativity or the words to make it happen. writer’s block? lack of clarity still rearing [...]

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Clarity Through Grief

It’s amazing how quickly we can lose sight of the things that are most important. For the past month and a half, I have been seeking clarity. My mind has been foggy with grief, confusion, worry and illness. Distracted with too much work, too many plans, and the lack of time and inability to really [...]

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these are the moments

why do so many people spend the majority of their time running away from their feelings? yesterday i spent several hours clicking through other wordpress blogs, focusing on the entries that were tagged with the word “emotion.” a staggering amount of these were written by someone who desperately wanted to flee from or control their [...]

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Emotional Intensity

it is both a blessing and a curse to be as intensely emotional as i am. setting aside the reasons why negative emotions can be a curse (they are much too obvious) i have found that even with emotions, there can be too much of a good thing. my blessing is that i can find [...]

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dozens of colors

shape upon shapes of dozens of many splendid colors. my mind’s eye is a master of beauty and form, yet my physical eye is untrained, uneducated. how do I reflect my world through my lens, or my fingers, or my words? it is impossible to portray the starburst of crisp, saturated colors in a way [...]

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The art of being in love.

“My mind is a madhouse, and my words are the outpatients.” Never in my life have I been able to accurately express my intense feelings, especially the pleasant ones. It seems that when I am in pain, words pour out of me, and I don’t even need to sculpt them into something that feels real, [...]

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Memories or burdens?

I stepped into my studio the other day with intentions of cleaning and packing up all of my supplies. Instead, I spent a couple of hours on top of a pile of clothes that do not belong to me, sifting through old papers and pictures, artwork and poetry. Looking at and reading each piece, remembering [...]

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